Blessed be.
Velumbound.
A new transmission exploring how grief, depression, and pain can become so familiar that they feel like a companion.
A black dog.
It captures a deeply human truth:
Healing is rarely a clean, sudden break, and the familiar weight of sadness can sometimes feel safer than the empty quiet that follows it.
The transmission highlights a critical crossroads:
The temptation to call back the familiar darkness ("that old friend") versus the choice to reach outward into the light ("ring up my real friends").
The voice in the transmission is conflicted because true healing leaves a vacuum.
Your home feels empty, and the silence is loud.
However, self-awareness is the saving grace.
Recognising that the darkness is seductive but ultimately isolating is the first step toward staying on the path of recovery.
Reach out to your real friends.
Maybe even me.
The transmission warns against facing the emptiness alone.
Reconnecting with human, living relationships is exactly how you fill the space left behind by the shadow.
(A tired voice whispers)
It was 3 years ago that I first saw it in my long mirror.
A black dog watching in the shadows.
Then 6 months later, in full view but at a distance. Watching.
Now four years later, it's my best friend.
He follows me everywhere.
Sleeps beside me, and lately I can hear him talking.
Talking about my father and about his end.
I went to see Old Shala, and she read my aura and said I was being stalked by a Lylak.
She asked if I had lost anyone.
I said my wife, and she said depression had opened a portal, and it had gotten closer and closer.
So with her permission, we had a ceremony.
Candles, incantations, and incense.
Looking in her long mirror, I sensed and watched my only friend leave my side with sad, heavy eyes, and slowly move away to the shadows.
When it was in the shadows, the mirror was suddenly broken, trapping it, and another thing happened, which I cannot say to this day.
I paid and left.
Now back alone.
I still see its red eyes in the dark.
Everywhere in my now empty home
Shall I call it out?
To that old friend of mine, or ring up my real friends?
(C)
Copyright John Duffy









