Foundation of the piece.
A writer sending a love letter overseas to a love he has never met.
Do love letters still exist in the 21st Century?
Have you ever sent one?
The letter to Sophia
Is it nearly midnight
My love
I can only hope those invisible tears aren't falling again
As you dream of me
And making you numb
Is it supernaturally quiet there and do the streets beneath your darkened bedroom windows
Run empty and do all sinister shadows stand up straight
Naked and bare
As you enter these narrative black gates
Does the seductive scent of a new escape with me from an old oblivion
Follow you everywhere
A new Heaven together
Above an old Hell
A welcoming haven for us to hide within
Rolling like twin stones in its long sensuous green grass
Hiding from judgemental society within its long shadows
Except for the beating
Of your heart
And the vibrations of your breathing
Can you hear any other sounds
For I have seen you dreaming of me
In my sleep
Felt your beating heart and tasted the soft sounds of your breathing
Again and again
Do you still dream of us
Been together
We
Some class as forbidden
For we are wild untameable horses of obsession and yearnings
That needs to be experienced and ridden
Do you just crave a sweet taste of my red wine
With your soft red lips upon mine
Shall I whisper your name to the four winds and claim you in rhyme
Will you give me all I need
In time
For I know the sweet visceral taste of us embraced in fields of green
Will forever linger like a divine tasting honey
And our minds
Merged
Will cry out in elation
Reaching deep realms
And keeps
So I just want to know
Will you send me something in return
As I wait inside these wrought iron old gates
In these so real lucid United Nations
For if you do
I will rush to you
In spirit
Through all the falling raindrops
Like Paris to Helen
Caress your soul before all who stop to see
Touch you wantonly spiritually so you will never want leave
It’s what I believe when I close my eyes
Beyond the sacred old ruins of Gilgamesh
Beyond the grey skies of Emersha Amu
I just can't see you
With my eyes open
Only when dutifully closed
In prose
It's then I can truly worship
And hope you feel my reverence
Touch you
As you caress my thoughts in rhymes
For I need you
Like a moth to a flame
Like a living being
Needs a name
I am weak for you
My Goddess
My eternal wisdom in the overgrowing darkness
Let me drown forever
Lost and spinning like Helicopter seeds
Tempestuously in your deep pools
Hypnotized forever within your dark eyes
As I stumble
From the stroke of midnight to early sunrise
As I wait for your letter
Let me feel your
Every drop of pain in words
Pain from old situations that still lingers and burns
So I purge them away with my own cleansing rain in return
For I am your own rain
For this purging rain has always been foretold
It has just lain with the old Crone in the deepest ancient unvisited woods
Waiting for the right moment to awaken and be understood
Like now as we are finally ready
To enter that old wood
Listen
Do you hear that
Noise around you
It’s me just calling
For I can see you in my silver scrying mirror
Any time
Any place
In the middle of the day or night
Beseeching or taunting
Or just teasing with dark promises of unknown deep pleasures
Do not be afraid
Shy or inhibited
For our ancient souls know
No set boundaries or red tape
No laws or treaties
No teachings
For we are untameable
Indomitable and wild
For we are truly free
In here my child
You now know how to access my realms of In-Between
You now know where to go
Where I’ll meet you by these wrought iron old gates
In prose
This is our underground stream
A secret no one else knows
Even when they dream
We’ll meet here ecstatically
In love letters
Like the blameless who are but truly pure
And we will lay underneath the indigo umbrella of the stanza falling rain
Expressing love with abandon in those new lands filled with no more pain
But tonight and tomorrow is but a long way away
Before you get my letter
So when you do
Do you still want to go beyond these wrought old iron gates to play
To lay blissfully under that indigo umbrella of expressions and get totally soaking wet
With lines and verbs
You will never forget
To French kiss in deepest desire with literature and Walt Whitman
To relight new fires and put out old pyres
Before you get tired
And retire
If only I could carry your hand from your world into mine
But it only makes it sweeter
Only makes it more cherished
These delicious exchanges whilst we are apart
For we are just living masterpieces using written metaphors as our communication
As our refound old art
I know your heart may still be ravenous
Your mouth still parched
Thirsty
Your arms may be empty and forever still
Reaching
But my Goddess
I have you to myself every night in those mysterious dark swirling isles
I receive
Just through those wr! ught iron old gates of verbs
You send
In lands where we will lay
Underneath that indigo umbrella
Where it always
Always
Still rains just Love
Whatever the outcome
And hopefully
We no longer feel numb
Whatever may come
(C)
Copyright John Duffy
John Duffy