The Confession of Stella Maldago

  

Press play and let the music wash over you as you read.

Salute.

I once searched social media

For someone special

Through strange posts

Memes and various themes

But still, I fell short

Got

Burnt and left

Feeling anxious and

Emotionally fraught

But then I found you

Your exquisite mind which

once tasted like a Chateau Lafite Rothschild

1964

Left me perturbed

Addicted and

Just wanting so much more

Everywhere I looked 

Be it

Oversea or shore

People or places

Life blogger's on Instagram

Travelers on Twitter or

Friends on Facebook

Your sweet memories

Rolling and spinning like a broken mirrored kaleidoscope

In my heartbroken mind

Always struck a painful nerve

Oh why does it have to be this way

Oh why couldn't you just stay

I always whisper in the dark

 

Oh by the divine words

Of old pagan biblical Gods

Which now haunts me

I can see why you left

Because you'd had enough

I know I could say I'd 

change 

This time 

It will be better

I won't be like

Theseus when he

Abandoned Ariadne

I swear

I promise

I'll change all my ways

I'll stop taking all those

Dark treasures

I convert

From Hêylêl

If you'll only you'll stay

But you now see me as a 

Half being

From The Great In-Between

It's you

I still painfully miss

All that adoration from that first sweet kiss

Oh by the divine words

I still whisper at midnight

To old pagan Gods

As I drink anything

Overflowing with wetness

And smoke from

Strange rolled cigarettes

I still miss all of you

As those precious memories 

Of all our previous 

Christmas's persists

I still dream

We'll walk Armageddon's

Dangerous shores 

Hand in hand

Across its yellow and golden

Mounds

And as my old world burns

We'll just write some more

As the Moon slowly

Appears and

Rises

Like Shakespeare and Sappho

We'll sit on its fire-lit shores

And our inner realms

We'll re-explore

As the darkness blows to 

Claim those yellow

And golden flames

On its shores

Below

We'll find our way

Home

And

We'll just sit on that

Marble tiled porch

You've always dreamed of

Sipping some expensive

Cristal Methuselah

Champagne

And

Look deep into each other's eyes

And it's there

We'll always

Remain

Before we step off the stage and no longer take part

In the greatest of games

But all that's a dream

I sometimes think about 

In the half-light

For I'm just another dammed queen 

Pretending to cry

Whilst haunting the dating scene

Like delicious food needs pepper and salt

Baby in our wildest moments 

We could have been the best of all

But all houses built with cards

Are all destined to fall

Just forgive me 

Your beloved

Stella Maldago

Who you met in the wet snow

Downtown in Chicago

Copyright John Duffy

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