. Poetry from The Great In-Between

Sunday, January 23, 2022

From Gaslighting To Freedom


(A lone voice sings)



Did you know I was

Going to really truly leave



Just another of life's seemingly 

Many lost souls



Full of indecisions

And strange decisions



But 

When constantly pushed



Full of new wisdom 

And newer transitions



Oh 

How I bet you wished

You hadn't pushed all

Those buttons



Told me strange stories 

And convincing lies



Said it's your imagination 

You're seeing things 

That aren't there



To help me make

Those seemingly unconquerable 

Decisions 



To finally find

The real strength to 

See-through the mists



Maybe now that I'm free

I can grow and bloom

 


Those old chains are now 

Truly broken 



And I'm no longer living 

In your own

Medieval

Inquisition 



I’m now free from your

Gaslighting



No longer unhappy

Or constantly fighting



No longer delusional



But walking with happiness and peace



Reunited



My futures bright

For I’ve seen the light



You’re now never welcome



For

With this song

I cast you out



Copyright John Duffy


Inspired by the endless number of sad shows I've viewed on Netflix, as I recovered. Salute.


Saturday, January 22, 2022

Question for an inquisitive mind


(A lone voice whispers)



Have you ever stepped inside



The cleansing purple transformational circle of emotional fire


Some call it a mid-life crisis

Some a new awakening 



And been absolved of all your worldly sins



Been burnt metaphysically and spiritually 


To be purified of nearly all your old personal whims



Are you now baptised and reborn to live past twenty twenty-two



Past all the seas of relentless fear trying to drown you 



But still drinking warm new Costa coffee



Swirling just lost down lifes seemingly never-ending routines



Do not fear the future but now chase all those old dreams



Which you still unconsciously nurture



For you can create your own version of heaven and then still serve her 



Are you still on the road seeking new stories as they are quietly being told



Are you into emotional music reading or just deep poetry



As you still walk under this life's great old oak tree



Are you glad to be alive



Well, here's to you



Keep finding the strength and determination to always rise



For whatever you're enduring



Just remember to be proud 



You still have a chance to find true happiness because you're still alive 



Because God built into you all the tools 



You'll ever need to help you survive



For the next twenty-five 



Copyright John Duffy 

Dare you READ the BINDING SPELL?

To the new muses reading these lines.... 

Press play.



Can you feel me 



For within your mind I now walk


Can you can hear my sweet voice as I now talk


Can you feel me slowly creeping  


Like a new force 


Through those cautious unexplored or unvisited emotional 

Corridors of your mind


As I pause invisible by your side and shamelessly 


Hypnotise you to 

Whisper this binding rhyme


For You are now mine

So says King Solomon


You may pass it 

Away as a sensuous 

Strange wet dream


You may convince yourself 

It's only your fertile 

Imagination 


Sending impressions from a deep place where I've broken the seal


But believe me

It's real


And you will see and 

Embrace it in time


For you are now mine

So says King Solomon


From the hidden passages

In my Black Grimoire


Stolen like a common thief

From the Devil's Black Keep


I invocate this binding spell

To force you to love me as you sleep


So dream of me

Tonight 


Just past midnight at a quarter to three

Until we meet


I've cast your name

To be petitioned and burnt


Into the ritual cauldron and now there's no one else

To blame


Don't question yourself when you unconsciously start tasting my name


And counting down the dogeared days


And seemingly endless nights


Tossing and turning

Restless and filled with angst


Until we meet in the Great In-Between 


When your soul

To me is summoned 

To take flight 


For you are now mine

So says King Solomon



So be it




Copyright John Duffy

An old Coal Miner speaks

  Press play. Salute.


(A lone voice whispers)

I leave this






My beloved painting by my old shaking hand

Now I'm ninety-three

For my children and grandchildren to see



For soon I'll be with my wife and their mother



My beloved Annabel Lee



A painting so they can always remember



That I've climbed into all sorts of dirty pits

Starting so many years ago



When Ma gave me my first snap box and sent me to work in late December



When at fourteen  

I got one of my many work permits



And since that first day, I've scrubbed for hours



To clean my decent hard-working soul



To be healthy for my family before I went home



After spending all day and night



Just digging deep for black coal



I was born just before gas was crowned as king and all generations went into the pit



Like all baptised to do so before us  



If we were forced to admit it



Men and boys who we soon knew forever would be our kin



Going into the light or darkness to earn a few bob



Following all our own fathers and grandfathers



When our time too came  

  


When they asked casually over breakfast



Are you, ready son



And we all replied over hot coffee with a silent nod



Remember me

My name was Samus O'Mally



From Gods Country  

In County Donegal



Where we chased the mad black stuff like it was our lives bounty



Those courageous strong Irish men



Who like me when we heard the call



Willingly sacrificed our brief lives



Chasing fools black gold



So all our families could eat and be insulated from all weathers 



But particularly the cold



Until it, 

Black Coals ghost



Finally stalked us down wherever we lived and hid like a wild hyena



Rewarding us with a fatal kiss for year's of servitude and service


With a black medal in the lung called after something so tragic 


I now know as emphysema


To then stand watching us all silently but bravely 


Fight its deadly embrace as we all grew old


Coughing up blood like we were living in Hiroshima


Forever now just tainted like so many others from brave fathers and mothers


For foolishly chasing the glories and stories linked with mining black gold  


So their families could stay warm and conquer the cold



I'm just one of the lucky ones who through the Lords blessings

Managed to grow old

Copyright John Duffy 



Friday, January 21, 2022

If Mr Grief could speak


A lone voice whispers in the dark at 3 am.



I'll never kneel to pray no more 



Because I won't idolise anyone this way anymore



I can't hold back my souvenirs of fears any longer



Though my tears still stain this grey uniform I dutifully wear



As I continuously look for a new sanctuary to rest



So my soul can repair 



I've got to take all those heartfelt condemnations with me



For with you

I've smiled



Shouted and screamed in joy to last for a thousand years



Constantly pushed to live the illuminated man's hidden underground dream



But what I wouldn't do now



Just to be with you



I know I must neglect all those painful memories



And try to go on and find the resilience I need



To let you go free



Just like a midnight lantern



Filled with good wishes and introduced into a New Year's Eve



To step away and shut that badly worn door



And let my existence go on like Adam



Who once loved Lilith prior to Eve



Before they went outside the Greatest of All Gardens 



And all his first love for her



He silently always grieved



Would we be better off if I had pulled all my barriers down



And let you in so totally and in all my hidden tributaries



Swim



Maybe

But I reckon we'll never know



So I'll let go of my claim with this



My final kiss under The Great In-Between's neverending mistletoe 



But you may call down someday in the near future unknown



Like a rolling stone



In the falling rain or snow



For this painful love we once beautifully shared



Will keep us safe throughout the blinding of the heart



The silence of the mind



For this love we once experienced in the darkness beyond the light



In the greatest of schemes



Will go through a new phase of rediscovering



Rewriting our tragic love story like a modern-day



Fyodor Dostoevsky



For humanity is sometimes incredibly



And intensely in lust with all forms of suffering



And love in action is occasionally a brutal and tragic commodity



Beyond all forms of cognitive psychology 



And only sometimes can be painted in words 



For love in motion is like a beautiful boat sailing through poetry



In a wishful dreams



For true love of any kind is never low key as it seems



Copyright John Duffy

Monologue of the Eternal Watcher


My dearest 


Are we like the mythical Adam and Eve


Lost and walking upon grey shores


Of a lost planet that constantly grieves 


Hidden in deepest of spaces in-between 


Our deep neverending love holding us knee-deep


As if buried alive if we could be seen


In a sacred place beyond the grace of living beings



Where we'll witness the birth of nebula's


Stars and rediscovered Old Gods


A new Atlantis filled with wild pagan beasts and jealous old men


We will stride beyond the reach of the Masters of the Masonic Temples


As they line up in black cloaks chanting amen


Whilst erecting their secretive light barriers 


As we part the soft pages in our own Books of Pleasure


To be perused and used at our inquisition and leisure


We will watch the fall of the empires of man


With the rise of the Hidden Hand


The Brotherhood of the Cosmic Red Serpent


We will lie upon the yellow sands of time


As the new version of the Great Crucifixion begins


To see and smell the visceral sights


Palaces may burn and be aflame before us


A new vision of an old-world consumed with corruption and sin


For as we watch we will know


We are riders of The Great Red Dragon


Once foretold


For we are the mythical Watchers

Who never grow old


We who collect the Universes hidden stories


In time to be simply retold


We just reborn as poets or writers today


No longer citizens of any known countries


Just sent again to take part


In the greatest of all unforeseen plays 


From The Great In-Between


To nourish inquisitive minds


Which are perpetually hungry


For enchanting new stories 


To help carry them through the long night


As they search for internal peace and redemption 


In the hope to ascend and earn eternal glory



Copyright John Duffy

 

Thursday, January 20, 2022

Do you believe in Spirit Guides?

  **Do you believe in Spirit Guides?**


(A lone voice whispers)


I've lived

Once loved and cried

Indulged in primordial urges and died


By the sharp
Sword of Damocles


No less
For a thousand years

As I fought emotions like a transmitted disease 


For I'm immortal

And I've mixed and fought with so many souls


Some with a kind heart

Fierce spirit
And a willing mind


Some so corrupt they would sell you out

For anything, they could find


I'm the wild untameable Thunder


In a storm-filled Autumns sky


The gentle breeze overflowing


With Spring's symphonies
Of baby blackbirds that cry


The scent of luscious
Winters mornings

Filled with a dash of mildew


The peace and tranquillity

Submissively reflected
in a serene Summer's sky


As whispering clouds
Jostle for kingship and quietly float by


For I'm eternal
Don't you see


Born from unexplainable storm clouds

Just beyond your sight


Baptized by giants hands in The Eternal Fountain


Heaven's white lightning 

Upon Heaven's illustrious deep mysterious mountains


I'm just one of many fragments resting deep inside 


Until you sleep

And then we all walk hand in hand 

Through all your keeps 


To speak and exchange words of wisdom

To seduce and advise


As we together conquer dark dreams

Whilst lost and vulnerable Before the early morning sunrise


Walking together bravely 

Only to then awaken 
Fresh and revitalized


To traverse this dangerous life 
sometimes soul-draining horizons


Filled with so many corrupted spirits 

Who just love to criticize


You'll see me sometimes

By your white picket fence


Standing alone in my grey coat of Salvation

In the swirling mists of
Time


Sometimes you'll hear me in the hidden Alabaster corridors

Within your mind


For I am part of your
Higher-Self


Bestowed to you by an almighty power


My only task
My penance
My treasure

Is to stimulate
Encourage and fortify


Within ever-quickening
passing seconds and hours


Behold


I am forever yours
As you are mine

And together we go to war
Every day you breathe

To rage against the Paradigms littered amongst the ever-eroding Sands of Time


If in me you
Do believe


Your spirit guide 


Just one of the Lord's many appointees 

Who's tasked to never leave


Copyright John Duffy

 

Wednesday, January 19, 2022

Jerome speaks

 


I will be sharing some voices, I sometimes hear, whispering in my deep dreams.


Am I a medium like my beloved mother?

------------

Jerome speaks


When I lived

So long ago 


Depression followed me 


Like an old friend

From the wild

East End


Standing always close beside me 

Like a second skin


In the dark


When I tried to raise my lonely old spirit


It just whispered familiar old lies


To keep me on its rusty old swings


To stay

Forever lost 


Within its endless bare parks


When I smiled at the world


And dared to raise my head


Above its grey concreted parapets


It just said its old prayers


And filled me full

Of my favourite


Well-loved and cherished regrets


But now that I’m

Dead


I now know

A sacred secret


You must fight the darkness


It’s a shame


Death has took me

To finally know this


Find someone to love


Just dip your toes

Ankle deep into life and get thoroughly


Beautifully wet


Remember

Life is exquisite


Beyond its veils of self-perceived depressions


You just have to regain

Your faith and self-belief

And trust in the process 


For as they slowly rise


You will remember that unspoken truth


And gradually forget all those once worshipped lies


The one truth

whispered to you at birth


That you might have chosen to forget


I only have a lonely voice in here


But its message is simply this


Enjoy all aspects of your life


No matter hard

It gets


You were always born free



For you don’t want to take anything


Into this afterlife

And suffer for eternity


Endlessly spinning within its dark depths


Like me


Copyright John Duffy

 

Memories of Clementine ti


 (A lone voice whispers) 


Within whiskey filled nights with a lonely cigarette alight


I always slowly sip malt liquor and think of you


From the first day, we met that smiling old vicar


To all those crazy nights we used to argue and bicker


And as the golden hue fills the deep shadows of this old room


As the moonlight dances like familiar lovers around my ever-rising smoke


I still miss your voice as time passes and memories flicker


A gift or a curse some might say


Tainted with the Devil's masterstroke


From downbeat days to euphoric sensuous nights


You were always worth the risks even though we used to fight


And as I sip and remember all those highlights


As I sit and slowly watch star-filled nights


These memories of gold conquering this creeping cold


From childhood to adulthood


When you were all mine


My baseline

Chalk line


But always my own Shrine Of Decline


But still, I remember and still, I ride


Sometimes there are things in life that always come back


No matter how hard you deny it


Or where you hide


With me, it's cigarettes and twenty-five-year-old malt whiskey


They always help centre me when these old faded blue eyes go misty


When I reach that old familiar place inside


Where I stand naked before this old line


Which always whispers

Does she miss me


Copyright John Duffy

The Sonnet of the Lone Guardian Angel

 

(A lone voice whispers) 



Some walk alone

seeking salvation



Others in groups seeking redemption



Through a silent breath, they all sing the same songs



A convergence of emotions to redo old wrongs



A joining of minds to continue the journeys



Emancipation has always been the lone cries



Voices echoing in the darkest of nights



We hear you and you are never alone



We see you



We are always by your side



This life has never been just a one-person ride



We are always with you in those lonely dark nights



An invisible hand to hold just hidden from sight



Keep your faith in yourself and whatever maybe



The sun will shine just you wait and see



I was bestowed at birth to only you



By your Almighty old friend



To help you in all that you contend



In all that you do



I am a secret friend who nobody sees


To inspire all that is deep awaiting release 



I visit nightly when you are asleep



When the world is quiet and you no longer weep



I walk in your deep dreams and we link arms and converse



We speak in all languages where nothing is terse



So if you have a glorious dream



If you wake up and still feel emotions and empowerment from a person unseen



It's simply me



Your guardian angel in life's twisted labyrinthine


Copyright John Duffy

The Mage