Channeling Caroline Flack

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(A lone female voice whispers)

All I've ever wanted

All my short life

 

From Enfield to

London

Is to feel truly alive

 

For someone special to just love

Me

 

From early morning

To way past

Midnight

 

After a yellow

Sunrise

 

But like all things

Which shimmer

 

Like much-coveted

Diamonds or precious

Gold

 

It's a dream

I still try to hold onto

Even now

 

In here

The Great In-Between

 

As I into eternity

Slowly grow old

 

Where are you

My one and only love

 

Will you ever find me

 

Before I finally cross over

To God's golden countries

 

And swim forever in its purple

And blue Seas

 

I once had

An emancipated dream

 

Dreamed I'll be happy

To parade on a

Love Island

 

For all to see

 

I was never young

But born

So very old

 

Filled with so many painful

Self-doubts

 

I could no longer control

 

I'm just so glad

I've lived a lifetime

Where happy memories

 

With my precious Jody

And my beloved family

 

Will help to extinguish

All those sad

Tabloid stories

 

If they are still being sold

Or retold

 

But it's a lost and lonely

Life in here

 

As I feel

The faint hooves of the

Track Master approaching

 

He who haunts all things

 

Which currently slow dances

To life or deaths

 

Ever spinning wheels

As he sings

 

I will be courageous

For I'm indomitable

 

And will face those last

Few years I once lived

And loved

 

As I watch those memories flow past

With such heavenly grace

 

And when I see

Our Lord

Which these in here

 

Call the Almighty

 

Who I still believe deep inside

Will forgive me

 

I'll just ask

 

Looking him straight

In the eyes

 

Face to face

 

Where is my

One and only

 

The one I used to hold on to

Tightly

 

In Stoke Newington

 

Who I still dream of when he

Kissed away

All those painful

Tears

 

I once cried

 

Wherever I was so

Sad and depressed

 

Even when the world judged me

And I felt so very lonely

 

Wondering whatever was going to

Be printed next

 

Before I go

 

I just want you to know

 

Jody Lewis

And all my family

 

I’ll always love you

And

You will always be my

Forever

 

One and only

 

I will always wait

 

Just look for

Me standing quietly

 

Within these

Pearly White Alabaster Gates

For regardless of what the world may print or say

We are forever true soulmates

 

 Copyright John Duffy