. Poetry from The Great In-Between: The letter left behind

Tuesday, May 25, 2021

The letter left behind

 


(A lone voice whispers)

So many soldiers suffer from the trauma of theatres of warfare.

I recently watched a sad film of someone reaching out but struggling to reconnect with his wife. 

It inspired this voice to whisper it seems. 

Salute.


The letter left behind


Will you just try to smile for me


As I still ride one of this life's many wild and untamed immortal ponies


So two can never really feel lonely


As we both try to embrace the spiritual which is so holy


And fulfil some of the signs which in deep dreams


Have been shown to me


To be the love songs of so many doomed soldiers 


Who once sang together 


Covered in the wet mud or dark coloured sands 


From here in Iraq in The Middle East all the way back to Gallipoli


Some may still choose to sing feverish old pagan gossip songs  of disown him


Leave him and his mental health issues


But have they ever had a friend like me 


I can still remember when I was once unjudgemental 


An easy ear to listen to


A shoulder to lean on and I can relearn all those traits if only you'll wait


For in this life it's never too late 


Even though it's not always physical but mostly remotely 


Will you just try to smile for me as I still try to ride one of this life's wild and untamed immortal ponies 


A testimony of slowly accepting the feelings of being emotionally damaged through continuous exposure to physical and spiritual physiological warfare 


Caused by fighting for my country 


To never recognise that deep down it's just one of those sad reasons why I always feel lonely 


But still, I'll stand strong holding out this invitation


Waiting for you once again 


To climb upon my wild pony 


And hold on as we ride together like a fearless Geronimo 


Throughout what remains of this life  


Through hell and high water 


Until we meet the metaphorical shores of the blue Caribbean sea


So we can once again turn friendships golden divine keys


To embrace all that comes hand in hand 


Whatever it be


I can only pray you'll still want to ride with me 


As I try to stand faithful and strong before this new war


Filled with not grey or black bullets or incendiary bombs but of emotive fires and volatile storms 


I can only pray you'll hold me real close


In the middle of the night 


And try to love me totally and keep me warm and whisper everything is going to be alright 


So I can still smile for me so two can never really feel lonely


As we both embrace the spiritual which is so holy


So we can ride together to try to find true happiness 


Like we once had and shared when I was so much younger when my mind was free and I was open to everyone who cared


and into that oncoming sunset 


Clinging on to one of this life's many tragic ponies


All I can hope for is a second chance and you find it in your heart to forgive me and know that I poured my heart and soul into this and really mean every word



Copyright John Duffy 

 

No comments:

The Oracle in the Mists