(A lone voice whispers)
So many soldiers suffer from the trauma of theatres of warfare.
I recently watched a sad film of someone reaching out but struggling to reconnect with his wife.
It inspired this voice to whisper it seems.
Salute.
The letter left behind
Will you just try to smile for me
As I still ride one of this life's many wild and untamed immortal ponies
So two can never really feel lonely
As we both try to embrace the spiritual which is so holy
And fulfil some of the signs which in deep dreams
Have been shown to me
To be the love songs of so many doomed soldiers
Who once sang together
Covered in the wet mud or dark coloured sands
From here in Iraq in The Middle East all the way back to Gallipoli
Some may still choose to sing feverish old pagan gossip songs of disown him
Leave him and his mental health issues
But have they ever had a friend like me
I can still remember when I was once unjudgemental
An easy ear to listen to
A shoulder to lean on and I can relearn all those traits if only you'll wait
For in this life it's never too late
Even though it's not always physical but mostly remotely
Will you just try to smile for me as I still try to ride one of this life's wild and untamed immortal ponies
A testimony of slowly accepting the feelings of being emotionally damaged through continuous exposure to physical and spiritual physiological warfare
Caused by fighting for my country
To never recognise that deep down it's just one of those sad reasons why I always feel lonely
But still, I'll stand strong holding out this invitation
Waiting for you once again
To climb upon my wild pony
And hold on as we ride together like a fearless Geronimo
Throughout what remains of this life
Through hell and high water
Until we meet the metaphorical shores of the blue Caribbean sea
So we can once again turn friendships golden divine keys
To embrace all that comes hand in hand
Whatever it be
I can only pray you'll still want to ride with me
As I try to stand faithful and strong before this new war
Filled with not grey or black bullets or incendiary bombs but of emotive fires and volatile storms
I can only pray you'll hold me real close
In the middle of the night
And try to love me totally and keep me warm and whisper everything is going to be alright
So I can still smile for me so two can never really feel lonely
As we both embrace the spiritual which is so holy
So we can ride together to try to find true happiness
Like we once had and shared when I was so much younger when my mind was free and I was open to everyone who cared
and into that oncoming sunset
Clinging on to one of this life's many tragic ponies
All I can hope for is a second chance and you find it in your heart to forgive me and know that I poured my heart and soul into this and really mean every word
Copyright John Duffy
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