Romeo Dreams

 (A lone voice whispers)

I sometimes still in this grey silence

Covet the one thing I searched for all my life up to until I was seventy-five

Even on the night I chose to die

Tragically remembering dark memories when I was once alive

In the darkest of empires lost in the blackest of nights

Haunted and stalked by all those little invisible irrational demons

Who delivered a metaphorical death by a thousand painful cuts

Which numbed all my feelings

As I once wallowed and walked in such profound misery

Stuck within a seemingly perpetual rut

But now I walk free for they've all been exorcised and extinguished

For although I never savoured the sweet-tasting and everlasting impressions of true loves sacred first kiss

Even when it seemed to materialize

And a dark hand always appeared to pull it back into the violet maelstrom

Of humanities deep swirling mists

I can now see a shimmering crimson light on in the distance

After all these years

Even though every time I previously looked especially at Christmas

It just seemed to turn on and off and I always appeared to just miss her like a faint whisper

But now she  

The Goddess imbued with so many beautiful gifts

Appears to me willingly with no perceived resistance

I now feel like Michelangelo sculpting Pietà

Totally lost in the joys of this life's new amazing creations

Now I can truly appreciate her

For I currently see multicoloured rainbows everywhere I go

And all my footsteps echo and resonate a new emotion for I now swim mentally

In a new unexplored ocean

And what was once an unknown mysterious experience to me

Is now my glorious sunlight

As every day feels like I'm walking hand in hand on yellow soft sands

Beside the sea with my first love who I just found out when we finally met and she whispered that she waited because

She always just missed me

Copyright John Duffy