The last time I saw you
Triggered the tragic cataclysm of
An unquieted mind
As I tried in vain to decipher my own Codex Consecratio
To overcome
And conquer
My own self-deprecating
Code Red
For You seem to be my dangerous solo mission
My one-way ticket
To Loves dark side of its many crimson prisms
And snarling Wolf Moons
Empowered by that ruby ticket
I once prayed and dreamed to manifest
Dreams filled with thoughts to wait until the End of Days
At your much-sought-after side as time flew by
For I have been metaphorically
Blindfolded
And willingly coerced and dragooned
For I’m now but a naive hostage
To you
My penance
To serve my own red devil on Earth
In human form
My happiness and dark majick
Contained in but one
My Scarlet Lady
Without any notions of fears
Or that human weakness
Betrayed through wet tears
Am I but a pitiful man
Some may say
In hushed whispers in familiar secret backrooms and penthouses
That I'm tied and lashed to your never-ending burning Crosses Of Gaslighting
And infernal
Damnation's
Overflowing and drowning in deep rivers of tribulations
Forever embroiled within lost lunacies of Dark Confessions
Centred around and circling love
Do I speak in unfathomable tongues
Am I indecipherable
Is that why you leave me lonely
Always
Soaking in this painful red symphony and tributaries
Filled with feverish octaves which ambush my weakened soul in endless waves
Awaiting the much sought-after glory days
That you always promise
When I'll finally be allowed to appear as your own Red churches
Self-imposed
Crimson
Altarpiece's
Only
Epiphany
All these things I cling onto but who knows what the future brings
But know this
I'm much stronger than I look
For I'm like the fiery Phoenix from JK's books
I'll rise majestically like an angel
When my beloved reputation is being tarnished and overcooked
Copyright John Duffy
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