Teva's Story

 Why do the voices speak in poetry as I lucid dream?

Are some ghosts just into poetry?

Is it all the rage in the hereafter?



When I once lived 

I lived in a silent limbo

Surrounded by an inner pain that always grew

And it just 
Couldn’t go on that way

We lived together forevermore
Or so I thought

It all began with a sudden interest 
In long walks alone

She always took her telephone

The mental separation started soon after 

Her building of a great big wall
Trump in this age

Would have been proud of 
In the bedroom

The sex soon stopped 
And her excuses were always good 

I admit

But I could always see through 
All those thinly painted lies

Covering it

Do I still miss her 
As all these years pass on

Well she left me soon after I confronted her 
With that deep knot of anxiety 

Getting tighter in my stomach
As I spoke

She tried to tell me more lies
Eventually

She broke and came clean

And said I was a no-good 
Old worn-out joke

And why shouldn’t she cheat
I had nothing more to give

Oh boy 
That inner pain got so tight
My eyes watered and I ran straight out 

I remember it so well

I went under the 645 train
On Thursday
1998

I can still see the driver’s bright terrified eyes 
And for that

I am sorry if I made anyone late

I watched my funeral
It took place on a Monday at 12

I saw old friends shed fake wet tears

She even came with a man I once knew

I hope he’s prepared for when she doesn’t get what she wants
And there’s nothing more in his world 
He can physically do

She’ll just cheat again and he’ll be looking for the 645
To just arrive

I suppose I should be grateful
It never really hurt

But now I’m free of struggling and 
It could be worse

I could be still shovelling dirt
And giving all my money to her

Well 
I’m at some sort of strange peace

I saw Jesus once

He said 

Son
All the living sometimes do wrong
I saw your woman once and 

I forgive you

I have a place in here
You can go to

Your old love Sarah 
Lives nearby 

Now wipe
Away all those soft tears

I've seen  
You always cry

Sometimes happiness can find you
Even if you die

Now go call by

Tell her Jesus sent you
And you’ll see everything 
Going to be alright

Now say, amen brother

Well
I said, amen brother
And if you could only see

It ain't so bad in here
I now have everything I need

Thanks for listening and fellas

Stay away from those beautiful 
Gold diggers

They’ll suck the life out of you
And turn you into your own
Killer

Well my Sarah’s calling and I must
Go



Take my thoughts away with you
Into those cold nights

Over and out

Cause I won’t be returning anymore

I now live happily in here and leave you with these two simple
Lines

Find true love
Because all things it ignites 

Copyright John Duffy

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