Unable to let go

 Foundation of the piece.

Is life just a purging of the soul and to ascend to a higher plane of existence,

do you have to let go of everything and everybody you once loved or knew? 

To do so?

Or would you wait to be called to join them if separated because you couldn't let go of your old life?

Title:

Unable to let go

(A lone raspy voice talks in the fog as it slithers in - to a hidden audience)

I crossed over

In March 

On the fifth

In the year of our Lord

1902

And all these sad years 

I've sat 

Patiently waiting for her

I've watched 

Our old beautiful world

Burn

Through the blackest of fire filled nights 

Through two world wars

Witnessed hearts bleed

With incomprehensible need

Seen corruption and illusions unfold 

Hand in hand

With greed

Out in the warm and cold

As the seduced welcomed evil into their strongholds

Watched shining stars fall

Sat thinking of my fate 

As I wait

Pining asking myself 

When will she call me to walk and join her through that silver gate

That I look to

Down this dark road

Every second 

Whenever I think

Of her

For I've looked in

Old memories that once beckoned

Explored all the seconds and who knows

Linked to being found guilty of sin

Chased paper boats

With endless time 

Just hoping

She's coping

In Heaven

And not broken in two

Like me 

In this Deep Divine

But still

Perched 

Upon this rock 

Chained like Prometheus

I

Wait

Even though the Mendli

You lot listening 

Think I'm crazy

But my old Love 

Still cuts me open

Making me cling to an old  life

With wild dreams of a new beginning

So angels

Forgive me

But hear me

Quick

Take my hand

And lead me home 

To her

Give me the Star Fire

If this can't happen

Or you can't do it

For I fear

I can no longer

Wait 

For the opening of that gate

So let me cross the burning sand barriers

Step straight through the eternal fire

For is waiting for true love

The price 

Worth all this pain

As one 

Moves on

And one remains

Show me a happy couple

And I'll show you the fire that ignites 

And it's that light

That I pray

Keeps carrying me

On horseback 

To my beloved wife

Throughout

All these 

Endless nights

As I fight Father Time 

To return to that old life

(C)

Copyright John Duffy

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